Not Then, Not Now

    Reach to the right of the nightstand for glasses; not there, or two inches to the left, nor a foot to the back; found it; sit up straight; turn around to the side of the bed; go to the bathroom; put toothpaste on the blue brush; put the blue brush in mouth; move hand in circles; spit out toothpaste; rinse out mouth; turn on shower; is today Tuesday?; wash face with soap; wash body with body wash; yes today is Tuesday; put on shampoo; wash shampoo; put on conditioner; leave in for five minutes; the noise of the shower; the noise of the shower; the noise of the shower; wash out the conditioner; put on a towel; dry; walk back to the bedroom.
     Put on the tank top make sure its white; put on the underwear make sure its black; put on the pants, make sure its opposite in color to the oxford shirt; put on the oxford shirt, make sure its the opposite in color to the pants; put on the tie now, not the blazer put on the tie first; put on the belt make sure its black; put on the blazer, make sure its after the tie; put on the shoes make sure they're brown; if the tie was before the blazer you've failed all the other steps and must start over.
     The iron skillet is in the cabinet to the far left; the bacon strips and eggs and orange juice and milk are in the back of the fridge; the glasses are in the top cabinet; the oil is in the pantry; the butter is in the cooler; put the skillet on the stove; the stove should be on medium heat; adorn the skillet with bacon and leave for two minutes; crack the eggs pour into the other skillet; put milk into the other skillet; put salt and pepper into the other skillet; keep mixing the other skillet; the skillet is now done; take the bacon strips out and dry before serving; take the eggs out and scramble before serving; put orange juice in the glass and pour before serving. Eating is harder.
     Hear the hum of the television in the background; get the milk from the front door; get the mail from the mailbox; dial up the laundromat for them to deliver the clothes; hop in the car to go to the supermarket; rush through the cacophony of honks and engines; walk through the two-story building brimmed with food, as well as gasoline, ammunition, and bikes; bump into young adults busy on their phones; wait in the checkout hearing the buzz of machines; turn on a lighter and find nowhere to put the burnt cigar; listen to the constant stream of news on the radio; come back home.
     Change into nightwear; read a book from the library; put on vinyl jazz; draw a hot bath; drink warm tea; turn off the lights; take off the glasses; go to sleep.
     Reach to the right of the nightstand for glasses; not there, or two inches to the left, nor a foot to the back; found it; sit up straight; turn around to the side of the bed; go to the bathroom; put toothpaste on the blue brush; put the blue brush in mouth; move hand in circles; spit out toothpaste; rinse out mouth; turn on shower; is today Wednesday?; wash face with soap; wash body with body wash; yes today is Wednesday; no shampoo; no conditioner; put on a towel; dry; walk back to the bedroom.
     From the time of waking to the finish of the morning proceedings the sunlight that had snuck through the slits of the blinds layering the bed has transformed into stretches and yawns until it completely receds back into the window to find another opening to transform in and to cement itself for the rest of the hour. But its gone now. And it won't come back till' tomorrow.

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